April 2010
Destiny?
The more I think about it the more I know nothing. As i lay dying on that hospital bed i saw a bright light, but before i could even think about where i was someone flew in front of me and told me to “just keep living”. i honestly cant think of why… warming up this couch doesn’t quite seem to me like a full life with meaning. I’m searching for it. I know there is...
dreams
for the first time in a very long time my dreams didnt depict you as my love interest. I think i have finally fully come to terms with what happened and moved on.
Lets Take a Moment...
Lets take a moment to remember that most people do not like interacting with people who are all about themselves, being nice to people gets you recognized in a good way. Looking down on everyone, name dropping, lying, deceiving, being self centered, and being two faced will get you just as noticed and maybe just as far but all the people who would have liked you and bent over backwards to help you...
failure
once again my lifelong dreams of being able to summon these Aeons has been foiled. In my haste to get them i forgot the most important part of the game. I forgot to carefully complete the cloisters of trials and get the secret hidden items. i have worked sleeplessly for the past two weeks to get this far in the game and just now found out it is impossible for me to get the aeons… any and...
You Suck
Every time I think of you fondly I remind myself that you suck.
The butterflies in my stomach was wine and nothing more.
You are still dark and mysterious, but in a “I’m going to cheat on you” kind of way.
So every time i feel lonely and I hear your voice say:
“I really like you.” I then hear my favorable response
but then it all rushes back to me, and i remember...
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i am already done
the more i think about it, the more i am convinced of this: there is no such thing as a soul-mate. No one likes to be alone and i dont think anyone should have to be, but the idea that we are all created with another being in mind and that we just arent whole without them seems crazy to me. i think there is great merit in being content with being single. most people i know just cant live with...
Things I can't wait to do...
1- go out in public without worry of getting sick and dying
2-finishing school
3- moving out into the real world
4-home owning
5-growing my hair out
6-not being on a million weird diets because i will get deathly ill if i dont
7-dancing for more than one minute before i pass out from lack of oxygen
8- dating?
9-having a job
